I can't go on with this anymore, Farewell ~

Hey Raz,
I read your "wall of text" and it's really sad.
My friends backstabbed me aswell , even real life friends...and why? Because i made my Mod application. They hated the staff and they decided to put the game over their friends so i think i know how you feel about that. I do have a family , but they are separated , i live and work alone too(though next to my mother's house , and i'm like all day at her). My father lives with my 15 years old brother far from me.
If i remember right , i've argued with u or maybe not argued but disagreed about some things you've said , so you might not like me at all and i'm sorry about it i was a dork.. now i'm trying to change tho. So ehh , we could be friends... since i don't have many friends left :3
Do you have some kind of messenger like skype/facebook/msn/xfire? So we can get to know each other better. I also got ooVoo but i never use that :S

Oh and hey , don't take this as "oh those are people are just trying to convince me to stay".
I would really like to become your friend , i got no friends to talk with either.. except for 1-2 that log on once or twice a month T_T

Message me please when u wake up ^^

 

Short version:
Friends left me
They are now in a crappy and racist legion (It's 100% true and I know it)
Got no friends, no family, not even someone to love
The other half of my friends act cold when I try to be kind.. and even flame me with no reason sometimes.
I'm just leaving, cos I won't stand crying over a game anymore.[/QUOTE]

Yes some people are like that. i hate backstabbing people i really do. I also really really hate those BS RACIST who would think of them selves as SUPERIOR over others. my advise to you my friend is try to make some friends not just in-game but in real life. I'm not saying that your emo :lol: but being alone will turn you into one :lol:. trust me, i know, I've been there, or maybe i still am XD hope not. and as you can see here most of us don't want you to leave, why don't you give it another try. maybe you just meet the wrong type of friends so try looking for the better one's. Since I'm a new player here ohh.. Im new with Aion BTW I've just join for almost a month now so i'm quite new. I'm a noob player that's for sure but, if your looking for a friend i will tell you i'm a good one. in real life i only have few friends cause i don't talk that much, i'm a shy type too. but in-game it's quite different cause you don't really see the person you're talking to so no need to be shy there. So! if you wan't to give it another try, then pls join siel, see Ehpsilon want's you to come to siel too i bet he'll make a good friend, even if i haven't meet the guy yet. i think his good :lol: BTW pls do inform us if you wan't to come and join siel. just so we'd know and welcome you, another BTW I play Asmo. but what the heck we can be friends here on the forums.

 

I was going to be an ******* and tell you to QQ more but I decided to not be a heartless ***** for once.
I don't have many friends either. IRL or online. I'm rather anti-social no matter where I happen to be. I know what it's like to feel sad over a video game, or to cry over something that some people think isn't even real. Some people think the friends and the people you know online aren't worth the emotions. It's rare that I say anything meaningful without trying to be a **** so you should take this to heart. Leaving just because you're sad and depressed at the current situation won't make you feel any better, you'll still have that sad empty spot in your heart. This goes for any time one runs away due to negative emotions. The only way you'll ever truly feel better about yourself, and how things happened is if you fight through it and smile again.
You can tell there's plenty of people who would love to be friends with you, just by the number of people inviting you to come play with them and their legion. I doubt many would do the same for me
Anyways, there's my positive post for the year.

 

awww dont be sad, if they backstab u like that they aint worth ur effort..


ps:WHY SO *****Y INGAME, I HEAL

 

I don't know if you guys noticed but, a bunch of us here are anti-social. don't you find that quite :w00t:....
i just noticed it, don't mean to be rude or anything.. just letting you guys know :lol:

 

Is that a yes?

Get real people. Anyone who pours this much into an internet game goodbye needs to log the f* off the internet and get out of their mothers basement/attic. If your that damn troubled you should spend time at a shrink or with real people. Why? Because a shrink can help you and with real people you can choke the shit out of them if they piss you off or do you wrong.

The internet isnt a place to make friends or put trust in someone. How can you trust someone you cannot see? Blind trust is like blind faith, you only get hurt, there is no upside. Am I negative? Probably, but if you shared my outlook, you wouldnt be in this situation in the first place. You would realize that at the end of every comment is a human being, and human beings are evil little ****ers that like to smash your feelings and eat popcorn while you post useless shit like the OP did just to soak up their reactions.

Dont believe me? Just watch how people flame me for posting this not thinking about my feelings at all (which i dont have). I leanred a long time ago that the internet, particularly communities where free games are involved, is full of *******s who dont give a ****. They have nothing to lose by 'playing' the friend when they feel like it, and then stabbing you in the face when they dont. They have nothing to lose. I dont know you, dont care to know you because your so down on yourself, and I think its pathetic that you post here in an ovbious attempt to gain sympathy.

Dont go away mad, just go away.

Two things:

#1 Trust no one.

#2 Only make friends with people you can choke.

 

Lawl mean.
Sidenote: I totally saw you imply you're a sociopath.
I doubt it.

 

Well, Thanks for the good comments and the understaqnding of almost everyone, except some backstabber that also joined to troll once again~
I srsly don't know what to do..
About my job, I started a new one like 2 months ago.. I almost got no friends there and I'm pretty shy to even talk with someone, I simply feel like I can't do it, there's also the fact that I got noone,
i get that I have to find strenght in myself, yet b/c of my life, I learned to depend on someone or something, and nowadays my whole world is just falling apart.
~ About my love relationshps, I never met someone who really liked my personality, most of the people is shallow, and I learnt that by experience, I'm not saying everyone is, just most of. . And the only person I really loved is now gone and I can't talk with her anymore, she's also in the other side of the world literally. . .
I never had family, since they all died when I was young and I couldn't enjoy much we can say, All my memories are bad ones, We might had some good times, yet I can't remember them or they always end up being negative or sad afterall.
@regii : I never was happy, not even when being a GM, I just hid my feelings like I do most of the time.. seems I'm good at it and well.. that's how I could act that kind ingame, so that players don't see me as someone depressed or smt.
@Demetrea: I'm not looking to be someone I'm not, I'm just the way I am and I won't act like someone else.. Yet thanks for the advice you posted.
@Anonymous: Thanks for being kind to me and not trolling me
@Calith: Srry for being like that this day, I was with the same problem as now, yet I was just hiding it.
@everyone else: Thanks for the advices and cheering comments.
@Jyulieauna: I decided not to talk with you, since you were a good friend mine, I used to enjoy talking to you and I even helped you with some things, I decided to invite you to our "family" and you just left to a legion which inderectly, calls you "retarded". . and after that, you barely said hi, an never talked with me again... at least u didn't flame me like others ~

Once again, Thanks again for everyone's comments and I'm sure I'll try to make things better.. I'll try to find strenght somewhere and someday, my life will be better.. (Sadly I've been like this since I was 15 / 16 , yet I never lost the hopes u.u)

 

NEVER lost the hope Raaz, i know that life sucks most of the times and its really unfair but I also know that life has beautiful and unique things. And another thing that i know its that life its full of surprises ~

 

I don't know you really cept as the person whose avatar I love but I'll be your friend!

 

I read ur Wall text



COME SIEL !!!!! I dont even know u but u seem to be good person >

 

id be happy to be your friend :3

 

If you need someone to lean on just send me a PM. I'm always lurking around here. <3

 

this thread makes me sad i didn't know ur name IG i just remember you like nice sam what always helping to everyone
when you was always in pande and like 20 people near you

 

<---jelly
can i pm you too D:

 

Yes, yes you can.
I owe you a lap dance anyway ;D

 

Deyna, go to the corner.

 

Even how bad or good your real life is you should remember that this is a game,i mean yea i know that you know that this is a game,so just dont take it too seriously,just play because you like the game not the people. Friends that we make over the internet are cool while we have them but when we quit then those friends will forget about us..I have had several friends in other games and look at me now,i havent talked to them for ages,our ways separated when we stopped playing the game.

Since you feel like what you have explained in your post,try making new friends in game,there are lots of good people and friendly legions out there. Also i would suggest you to try making real friends in the real life,go out more, etc... All the friends online wont beat a friend in real life. That i know for sure..

And good luck. Bad robot out..

 

Shush you.
Before I go ingame and pwn you with my un-geared cleric.

 

Come try your luck, but beware, I'll make you shit brix with my new sorc.