What to do when you got this feeling?

It could be. o:

 

@ Deadlychants: well yeah, I am depressed lately. You see, life's been always tough with be since yougn age but I never gave up, not even for a single moment. I've been always the smiling guy you would meet no matter how I felt inside. I rarely left to be seen sad by others, not because I was acting like a hero or a tough guy but simply because this is how I am. I'm used to deal with my own problems by myself.

It's just that now I feel crashed inside. It's like I have fallen and I can't get up again because I haven't left any inner streght or courage to raise up this body. There is noone to pick me up at this very moment that I really need someone to be next to me.

I will be back in shape quickly, I'm not quitter. Yes, I thought for a moment about killing myself at the situation I am. But tell me who hasn't think about it at least once when he was in dead end?

 

You know we're here for you, in a way Raik <3

And it's good that, that was only a passing thought.. attempting it really isn't something people should have to go through in life >:

 

u know u can just stay back and float by lol ur depression will be killed itself by the time and yea as adieu said, there is always someone who will support and feedback u :3

 

Well, I always had a goal in my life, something to achieve, a dream to hunt. Right now I feel like the meaning of life is lost somewhere inside of me. It makes no sence why I'm still alive but I guess that I didn't come so far by doing nothing xD

I appreciate that I got you guys to support me, thank you all :3

 

I am Bored of my life .. i want a new one)

 

WTT> mine life full of advanture

 

You don't.

You don't get over hard days, when everything goes wrong. From my experience that is. Maybe, it's cause just cause I'm mentally a bit weird. Not sick, perse, but just have an interesting memory that makes it hard to forget stuff that happen.

I choose to ignore stuff, and try to let it affect me as little as possible, deep down it hurts, but you learn to cope with it and from there on you adjust yourself.. Adjust yourself to a better you, so that the next hard day, won't be as hard.

I'll have some memories to help me from the past, and help me pull through whatever the future brings me, keep the face up high, and look through the darkness until I find a light. Even a little ray can help change everything.

Buuut... your case is different, so I don't know, why I said this.

 

Raik3n...few ppl have a good life...you see that smiley ppl...they are just like you...smile...but not inside...you are that type of guy .....you have a strong mind...that makes you feel phisically strong...you may be strong or not...and when a really bad thing happens and you see that the mind cant help...and all that you are its now almost 0 and you cant really do nothing you are kinda devasted...depressed...if im wrong...im sorry...but this is how i see you...and how ive seen me...but you know...bad things are like elyos in siel...overpopulated...but do not forget about the ppl that are there....you are a part of their mind...the ppl that cares about you....{i had some bad....really bad situations but never had any taught about suicide}...think at you...think at every person that means something for you...and isnt only for raik....its for all!

 

All that you guys say is nice and cheering me up because you do care and try to make me feel better =]

Althought in my situation I'm lost because in RL I got noone to hold from, this is why I feel how I feel at the moment and it's hard to see the bright side when I got only my shadow next to me.

I will head to bed now... Drink didn't help last night, so it's pure sleep -if I manage to get any- tonight^^

Good night/ morning/ noon all!

Thank you again for your support :3

 

As Crop stated, each day will bring new challenges. Each day will become harder than the next for a lot of us. We just have to learn to manuever through it all. The world is always going to try to bring us to our knees, to constantly beat us to the ground, and we can stay there permanently if we wish. Or we can keep pushing forward and fight back. Even gaining an inch in life is worth a lot more than people think. Just try to keep a smile on and hold your head high. It is the best most can do in their circumstances.

In terms of my own past, like Crop, I have a very good memory. I can remember things very vividly even if they happened almost a decade ago. I constantly have to push away memories of my past, but it is those memories that also give me the strength I need to move on. They remind me of a past I wish to no longer see and make me hope for a future that does not repeat it.

 

-sigh- I share the same feelings as you do, but under different circumstances.

Gnight, and hope you feel better tomorrow, bro.

 

G'nite Raik. You know how to contact me if you need someone to talk to. ^^

 

Yeah... I have a partial photographic/eidetic memory. Only one in the family that has slightly developed it, and it's annoying as hell..

 

Yeah. It's good for some stuff, but it becomes a pain when bad things start to happen ;^^.

 

you cant change your past, trust me, Ive spent enough time wishing I could. So just look forward to the future to make it right. And misery loves company, know that there are always people worse off than you. You can hold some pity party for yourself, but Im sure I could tell you of stories much worse. Writing helps a bit, I remember just writing down my thoughts helped me. Talking to other people though didnt. Time's just the best cure, just push past. You'll have to get over it eventually or it will keep holding you back, dragging you back down.

 

If u have a truly horrible past, u won't be able to forget it for as long as u live.
Only thing u can do is try to suppress it and show people you are okay.

My own life has also turned upside down, things kept on happening that shouldn't have happened and put me in a near death state a few times, not allowing me to die even.
Just because of a few things happening, the pain i felt after it was a lot more than i could have possibly imagined and i ended up completely mentally broken.

But after years i somehow managed to recover a little, allowing me to look at forced future at least.

But yeah somehow the only reason that kept me alive was when i found something to entertain me, knowing about my fathers horrible past and what is currently happening in front of me.