Lost my faith, inspiration, and the will to move on.

It's been 6 years now. I had totally lost faith in God. Lost the rythm that made my life play in synchrony. Lost the inspiration to pursue my dreams. I don't even know the meaning of the word happiness, and confused between having fun and being happy. I even lost the appetite to finish college.I cant help but disregard other peoples feelings. My girlfriend asked me once "So,what's your plan for the both of us?" That was the first time that i couldn't say anything. I was completely blank. Everyday that passes is a day that im searching for a purpose. but then again im still tied to my dark side. i want to break away. i want to see the other side of life. i want to live life itself. to sing, to feel inspired and cherish things while im still alive. sorry guys. i just need to let out a little steam. can someone take me to a place where i can feel alive again?

 

Believe in yourself.... at least its something we can say: real.

End of problems. WIN

 

more like, reality check. reality bites.

time to reflect mate.

 

I dont know how old are you, or how are you living your life... but by experience i can say that you are the one holding the answers, in time you are going to find out eventually. Just dont shut the door to the things that will give you a future, like study, family or your Girlfriend.

 

reflection. if have the chance to take you to my world, you might be seeing the world on the different perspective

 

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the only medication i take everyday is a medication of hate. my girlfriend talks BS and also my Goddamn ****in mother who wants to control of my life. ****!

 

overcome yourself, Do what you likes and do what you wants to do.

 

you've forgotten who you are, try to reckon all good moments you had with your beloved ones. take a bottle of wine leave yourself alone with your thoughts, let your brain encourage your heart and give belief in self again... depression can really take anybody down and you need to fight back, the best thing you can do now is, visit a psychologist

 

O.O" may god bless you.

 

1) I never had Faith in God. Or maybe i had some , but that was like 5-6 years ago. God disappointed me.
2) My Life never had a "Rythm" , my life is fked up.
3) The only dreams i see are Nightmares.
4) I do NOT have a Girlfriend currently.

Your Life is way better than mine , believe me.

Anyway , the best place to make u feel alive again is probably the toilet. XD

ps: That's what u get for playing a spiritmaster!!! Oh and the depression is caused because you are paying more attention than you should to the computer. Get a RL ! Depression can cause heartattacks.. D:

 

but life always contest to what iwant to do. what im doing. and what ive done.

 

i already experienced near death while sleeping. i felt my heart stopped and saw my body floating away from me. i even tried hurting myself but ifelt no pain. but imansge to grabhold of my body and woke up.

 

life is harsh that is why you keep fighting to become stronger. Put your mind to it

 

So what? lol

I've "Killed" myself once.
Medicine overdose and no it was not by accident lol.
My breath and heart stopped for 25 minutes , then i woke up in the hospital.
What it felt like? well.. before i die , when i was shaking like a fish out of water , the feeling was terrible.
But then , when i woke up in the hospital , i felt like waking up after sleeping for a week I never enjoyed sleeping so much i admit.
That's why people say "Rest" in peace when someone dies xD u truly rest.

 

this tread is Dramatic

 

"serious discussion"

 

@petro i guess it wasn't time for both of us to go. the difference is i fought for it and you got lucky. @rapture get out of here you've been trippin by thanking everyone. gosh!

 

reality does bite back when a question like that is being thrown at you. pardon if you are offended, t'was never my intention.
every individual has their story, different yet similar at some point. nonetheless, clear your mind by doing something different for sometime. like away from daily routine.

killing yourself wouldn't be a better way, i know. i've done so, and it ended up me having to pay my medical bills which is really outrageously huge.

 

i did'nt say that im going to kill myself. btw what hurts most is to be stepped on by your family and betrayed by your so-called friends. and it stings like hell.