New Life?

Yet Another Boring Story.
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If you don't have time, don't like me, or got any reason why you don't want to read a wall of text nor listen to my story, Just don't post, don't read it, nor comment about it.

So yah. It's been a while since I logged here.. since I won't be ingame anymore.
This is how my life went so far.

I still got the same job, It's pretty nice now that I made some friends there, plus we laugh a lot in that office, lol.
I get paid decently (more than decent, ) and I do enjoy it.. I dislike waking up early.. but well u.u, I gotta do it in order to keep my job ^^ .
As far as for work goes, everything is allright and it's actually funny.. Day passes as quick as a blink of an eye.

Family, still the same, My brother's still alive, but he's got a GF so he barely talks with me or even show up at home, which means I'm kinda alone except for weekends, I'll talk about that later on.

As for emotions, I really can't describe all my feelings atm, nor everything else, since it'd take over 2 hours, and I kinda have to leave in 20 mins to be with Christa ♥ :3

But well. I'll try to make a sketch of it.
I was kinda lonely and sad.. since my last GF dumped me like a disposable tissue.. FML, OMG, ikr? XD
So this friend came closer to me watching I was all sad.
Our conversation was somehow funny to me.. yet It won't be for anyone who doesn't undertand my toughts, lol
C♥ -"seems like you're pretty sad"
Me -"no shit, Sherlock -.-"
I apologised after that, Yet I always laugh on how I can treat ppl when I'm sad or somehow disappointed u.u... we started talking a lot, I told her my story and I got to know her pretty well aswell, her likes/dislikes, the music she likes, what she drinks, her feelings, her family, we can say everything. And every single day I talked with her I started feeling somehow better and I noticed funny and cute things about her, like her super cute smile everytime I make a random joke out of something (Yes, I do jokes sometimes, you barely know this part of me but I do ¬¬), or her laugh at some of my sarcastic comments to others , and else ^^..
I always knew she felt something for me, since an old friend told me so.. and so do I, however she was always kinda far from me and I always tought a cute girl like her just couldn't be with someone like meh.. but well, Now things worked out and I'm kinda dating her and so far it's pretty nice ^^
When I'm alone I keep thinking about my last GF, since I still love her, and can't keep my head out of that tought everytime I start watching back all the things we did.. But when she's with me, I forget about everything, and, in that moment, I can really say my life might be perfect somehow.
It's pretty hard to find someone to love w/o getting disappointed at some point, However I'll give love one more chance, to see how it goes.
I still got AAD, Schizophrenia, Depression, Suicidal Tendencies, and much other psychological problems (According to my psychologist, ofc ¬¬), but Regardless of my lil Borderline disorder, I can still be happy from time to time when she's around . And I wish It was like that forever.. but well.. I can't really decide that.
She might move to my house next month, since she wants to see me more often :3

Guess things got worked out in the end. For now..
I just wanted to share some of my actual life with you, I'm not showing anything off nor anything else, I'm just a lil happy and wanted to share that happiness with you guys, even tho noone likes nor supports me nowadays.

Best Regards.
Katherine aka Raazzil / aka Morgana

 

Good gawd, seems like you're having fun out there

 

Glad things are working out for you Razzy

 

thanks for sharing

 

I just woke up so I can't really be assed reading this, but all that matters is if you're happy with your life and enjoying the ride, and from the end of your post it looks like thats going well so, that's great, I'm happy for you. I hope things keep getting better and better for you, everyone deserves happiness ;o

 

Its great to hear from u and see that u are doing better.

All the best Raaz , enjoy life & love ^.^

 

Be easy on your precious self cause that's all you've got. Know that you're never meant to walk alone and you're not the first person facing these problems. I've all the self emotional problems you have and maybe more. I think life is easier when it's shared aka relationships :3 I need to get someone ><

 

*wink*

Seriously though, I agree

 

Lol imagine that scientist looking guy winking at you. Creepy!!

 

It actually made me happy reading this from you, that's great news ^^

 

i just love the way you find and put your words in your *book*:love: