I can't go on with this anymore, Farewell ~

Farewell

Well, I'm always writing wall of texts.. and this won't be an exception, If you don't want to read it, I'll include a "short" version once I'm done with the original one.

I'm just informing that I'm completely leaving the server, and prolly the game aswell, It's not about the bugs ingame, I could just deal with that by playing retail or some other place and talking with my "friends" in gamez, However things have changed this past months and I'm really sad about it, I've been crying this past days every single time I logged ingame for several reasons, I don't express my feelings much cos I'm somehow antisocial and shy towards others, so once I do express them, they all come out like a volcano and make me feel really really frustrated, sad, and I always find myself crying about how things used to be and how things are now, Let me, at least, explain you why I'm like this.

I made quite a few friends in Lumiel when I was SAM, and I still keep some of them (others left or just feel like ignoring me somehow), however I can't stand to see how everyone just backstabbed me, and I can't really log w/o crying.
As a regular player, I used to raid fortresses almost always (when they were broken and they were somehow easy), So I had a some gold medals wandering around, which I used to help some friends to get weapons, armor parts and such, We all used to be in the same legion, and we were a really good group, I'm not talking about pvp, I barely care about it since I just raid on weekends when I got time, I'm just talking about friendship, having some good times, and else.
Now all I see is the legion empty, myself bored and sad, and everyone I used to consider a friend in a legion which actually calls brazilians "retarded and inferior, and with low pvp skills and IQ" just to mention a few things, which is also made of 99% of players who think they can pvp, when they barely know what stigma is.. , the only person I used to love, doesn't log anymore and I can barely talk with it since it's always busy or doing something more important that me it seems, and the other half of my "friends" ingame, Joined other legions and every single time I try to be kind to them they just answer me with cold comments and sometimes with flames w/o any particular reason. . .

I know this is just a game, and perhaps friends were never real like I tought, However you don't know me, you guys don't know my life and the way I am, my personality isnn't that normal like some others. . I won't explain that since they're way too personal and they have to do with my life experience we can say..

I'm just sad, crying every single day.
I got a job, and I'm lonely as hell, Got no friends, no life, no family, not even someone to love.. I guess someone should know how I feel and actually understand me.. if not, ok then ~

I can't really thank anyone in this post or letter or w/e it is, since everyone just left me and now they end up flaming me with no reason or act like if they never knew me.

The only person I can actually thank, is Carlie, she's, at least, the only person I can really call a "friend". . Thanks for that..

Goodbye ppl.. I might join the forums from time to time to see some posts and stuff.. but I won't be ingame anymore.

Short version:
Friends left me
They are now in a crappy and racist legion (It's 100% true and I know it)
Got no friends, no family, not even someone to love
The other half of my friends act cold when I try to be kind.. and even flame me with no reason sometimes.
I'm just leaving, cos I won't stand crying over a game anymore.

 

**** your friends, don't give a shit about them.


There's nothing worse than backstabbers and two-faced liars. I hope the lot of em die in a hole full of syringes.

 

Wish I could..
I'm heading to sleep anyways ~ Gotta wake up early to work tomorrow =/
I might join the forums tomorrow night or someday..
Ty for the advice, tho

 

come to asmo side :3 u can find one good legion and friends too :3 if you want nyump

 

let me be your friend, im not like them.

 

Dont leave i'll be your friend

 

Can i have your stuff?

 

Stay with us Raaz, come to Siel and lets be friends <3

And im like u, I'm a shy person but don't know why i can talk almost everything here in net, so if you need a friend or an advice just pm me or add me to skype too~

 

Come asmo side. im sure we have a spot open for loving ppl like u. and we are a good loving family.

my *hugs* goes out to u.

 

wow, that sounds like a sad life...
no friends, no family? What about your workplace, don't you have friends there?

 

Ill be your friend any time- Name in game is Nymphette

 

Your story made me feel sad :[

 

Well I didn't get to know you that well, we spoke a few times but nothing more beyond that. I can say however that the way you're expressing yourself, it seems you're a little troubled by more than just and in-game life.

It's hard to deal with situations like the one you're going through but it's not impossible. I won't tell you "be positive, be happy, friends are shit, just ignore them and don't care for them" because I'd just neglect how you feel about your friends. You can make more friends, friends will come and go, some will return, some won't but just know that even if you only have ONE single friend, that matters more than having a bunch of so-called friends around you.

Read the responses you get by the people posting here and you'll know that some care and you're not really alone. Give others a chance to get to know you better and become friends with you. Listen to Ephsilon and Isin, I'm not sure if they're serious but if they are, can you really shutdown yourself others that are willing to be your friend?

You're not a SAM anymore so anyone that comes around and wants to be your friend, it's probably because they mean it.

However, if you need to go then you need to go and it was quite nice to have you around.

Btw, don't let in-game Drama affect you, it's not worth it. (if any ever happened that is)

 

Wow Kath, if this is how you truly see me..
I'm glad I was valued so well.
You don't even know what's going on in my life dude... but that's ok it's not your fault you don't.

And you know me too well to just throw you out.
You shouldn't have posted this without talking to me first.

I told you already you could trust me and that whatever people said shouldn't phase you and that you shouldn't believe them.
I listened to you about your girlfriend I'll listen to you about anything. You should already know this..
You've been acting so strange lately and I didn't expect it to be about this, not at all.

 

errr are you a female??

 

Come to Lumiel, i can be ur friend.

 

-Gives you an Aegis-Hug-

Screw them, they are horrible friends!

 

Aegis saves the day..

 

I'm not going to lie, I read the short version because I'm lazy. So I'm probably missing context.

However, if a game has come to become this important that it could make you cry, and feel like you have no place in it. Then leaving is the correct decision to make. I think having friends via interwebs is great, hell I've made a ton of amazing ones over the last few years. Though you shouldn't ever expect them to treat you as they would if they knew you in RL. Because you never really know how someone truly is on the web.

Take a good break, have fun. Do something amazing.

Cheers.

 

There are so many people in your situation that let this game and these people take over their lives. You're not the only one trust me so don't let a bunch of immature idiots drive you away. It's up to you though, maybe giving up the game and getting out there in the real world will let you experience new things and make real friends. Maybe you haven't got any friends irl because you stayed confined to your four walls and on the screen chatting with people that didn't even care. Get out there, life is beautiful and there to enjoy. Don't let those four walls and the computer screen take over your life. The choice of course is yours. You seem very in touch with your feelings and that's an amazing quality in a person, believe it or not people respond to that while in some cases these room confined losers take advantage of it. I'm not telling you life is perfect but it can certainly be better than just wishing for people you probably never even met in real life to pay attention to you and like you.

By the way I'm not being judgemental I'm speaking from experience. Live life to the fullest or it's just gonna pass you by. If you do quit GL out there and break out of that shell =) because it's gonna be okay!