Raik's public apology

Hello Gamez Community,



"You'll forget it when you're dead, and so will I. When I'm dead, I'm going to forget everything–and I advise you to do the same."
— Kurt Vonnegut (Cat's Cradle)


It's true that people forget all the bad things which others did to them when they die. Yes, they do forgive but they don't forget them. They never do.

The past few months I said and did many things which I shouldn't. I did hurt and insulted many of you for no reason, but it was wrong. It's time to face you all and apologize for my behavior. It's time to accept every reply from you for what I've done.

There are moments when you have the illusion that your problems will be solved if you will blame the people around you, if you will rage at them just to make your anger go away. But this is wrong. Sooner or later you realize how empty you feel after doing it. Instead of having the feeling of pleasure, you feel even more angry because the pain remains and all you managed to do is to add another one problem - the hate of your friends towards you.

^This is what I did the past months and it was so wrong. People say: "It's good if you realize it late than never" but the problem is that the damage which I have done is more than enough and the fact that I have been given a second chance shows only how big heart this server's Staff has.



"And a step backward, after making a wrong turn, is a step in the right direction."
— Kurt Vonnegut (Player Piano)


After causing so much unnecessary drama to this community; I'm here this time to apologize to all of you in Gamez.

Bella,
I have said things about you. I have been wrong in front of you and I blamed you for things that were never true. I disrespected you and insulted you as a woman, as a mother, as friend and as staff in front of others. By saying that I'm sorry and I was wrong is not enough to settle the things between you and me. I know that your trust is hard to earn back but I give you my word that I will prove that I've regret for what I've done. Everyday is a new opportunity for me to make my words action and I will try to do my best in order not to screw it up this time.

Admins,
For a long time all that I did was just show my disrespect to you. Instead of being your ally, supporting you for all the great word you have done/doing for this community, I was just causing drama, complaining and opening more battlefields with every chance. I won't hide that sometimes I don't agree with your methods but this is not my server, this is not my community but this is my place where I met new friends and where I 'hang out' on the net when I have free time.

I apologize for my behavior, I caused you troubles instead helping you with my experience to solve any existing problems. Starting from today I will support you and everything you do for us. In any way I can I will try to help instead of damaging this community.

Gamez community,
You have been my friends for so long but I back-stabbed you in the back. I started with a good mood to help this community but somehow* I became what I was fighting - a troll, a useless member who was doing nothing more than trying to make my anger go away the wrong way. I did use many alt accounts after my main was banned. I know that I have no excuse, that's it's up to you if you will accept me back or if you will just flame for what I've done in the past.

*I know that I had lost the control over myself and I was acting like a jerk for some months now. From a chill and cool person in real life I became an a-hole who would attack anyone for silly/or no/ reasons. I was having hard time to deal with my real life problems so maybe that's why I abused the power that internet provides us: To be anything we want to be behind a screen and keyboard. Althought everything has its limits.

I apologize in public in front of you and I do regret for my behavior. It's your call to forgive me or to keep the fight agaist me. I deserve any kind of treatment because I have been so wrong and unfair with you all.

Wish you the best.

Thanks for your time,
Raik~

 

I just wish you get a real life outside Gamez oh and a real Girlfriend.

 

If only I knew who you were x.x

 

Like.. Frenemy? LOL.

Anyway, Raikken, normally it's hard for me to change my view on people/how they act and stuff like that, but I think I can give you a second chance :3

 

thought u said u were going to be nice this time... xd lol

on topic
@rai I understand where u coming from it is hard to forget things that people do to you but the things u did against us(saints) I(personally) can forgive you since thats just the type of person I am anyways.

 

Oh raik, aka Frenemy :')

 

American Army:> .. even the shit from toilet smells better

 

I always liked you regardless of the things you said but it's nice to see something like this out of you as well.

 

He was here like 5 months before you were. :O
whoru.

@ Raik: You behavior got a little out of hand. You should PM certain people if you want to apologize imo.

 

I only flamed u cuz of misunderstanding :<

 

Suprised you did this.

Actions speak louder than words, and its a step in the right direction. Learn from things past and make yourself a better person because of this.

 

i never had anything against you but its good that you have apologized for what youve done though like vil said,

actions speak louder then words

 

Serious thread... then serious replies...

//gets to aegis' post.. ugh what is that guy doin >_<

@topic: Its nice to see people realize the bad things they have done. But if U flamed me and gave me the reason: "Im behind a keyboard." Nah really I wont accept the apology. But then u didnt so, good luck to you and have a nice day everyone!

 

LOL xDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!! He is being sexy.

 

Guys, Please don't flame him. It took a lot of courage to make this type of public apology.

Raik - You'll always be that cool effin greek boy I enjoyed talking to. Your apology was done well... So with that said... I will unban your legit account and welcome you back to the community with open arms...


[video=youtube6UVhZTTWb0]http/www.youtube.com/watch?v=P6UVhZTTWb0[/video]

If you were payin attention a week ago, you'd know that he had made a ban appeal, in which i replied and requested him to do this thread.. so please.. pay attention....

That is a nonsense post and fail attempt of trying create drama.

 

I don't read everything on the forums, so there is no way I would have known that.
It's not my job to look at ban appeals, though I knew he was banned.
I don't look at all your replies to everything.

I told him it would probably be best to apologize to those he hurt most for what he was apologizing via PM. Seems more powerful when it feels like it's meant for an individual. I also said in my opinion. He could surely feel otherwise, and he could say that if he wants to.

The post makes sense, I just went a little more in depth for you for it to make sense to you.
I wasn't trying to create drama at all. You misinterpret.

PM me if you want to reply directly.

 

Go Raikken go ^^

 

omg can i get unbanned too if i apologize

 

yes, a public apology means swallowing a LION..


and everyone deserves a chance..


we always commit sin everyday.. ALL OF US.. God can delete us in a blink of an eye but He would not do that coz we all deserve a CHANCE to make things right in our lives..


so, if somebody don't give Raik the chance, well.. WHO ARE YOU? even God knows how to forgive

 

I'm just glad I never get involved in much drama these days. I even got some friends back by talking and accepting some stubborn mistakes I made.
Guess the thread is usefull and perhaps you should have noticed your behaviour long ago.. I remember leaving you a wall message over that, and you said you might try to change.. yet It seems u didn't u.u
I used to enjoy both yours and Beastie's posts back in the time.. when most of them were formal, polite, stating clear points with a clear objective. But well, things change around.. and guess I'm still stuck in the old times.

Anyways ~ dunno why u flamed Bella, along with many, many other players here in forums.. I find her an all around nice person, with a funny personality aswell :3
I always enjoyed her random funny convos with meh when I was in staff

As for Admins / AM's / w/e they want to be called as . . . Everyone wants to flame them over some decission, sometimes they are right, sometimes they are completely wrong, as many know, They aren't Paid GM's and some of them don't have enough experience for some things, which is why they're a team, to ask each other the stuff they don't know or doubt about. I do know that you might get mad or pissed over their decission when you know it's not the right one, yet you don't need to flame them, Just state your complains, in a polite and kind way, and they will be heard and you'll eventually reach to an agreement.

I guess you are really regreting how things went.. since you wouldn't be posting this if you didn't care at all, you could have just left or started smt else.. However, you decided to stay here and assume the "consequences" of your actions, we can say.

p.s. I'm still mad at you for your message in my wall long time ago >:3
p.s.s.: Good luck with your appeal.
p.s.s.s. I like apple pie, lol