Vent a Story ~

Hi, It's me again, I came here to vent a lil about my life, since, I can't do it anywhere else where I feel comfortable.
It's just one story in my life, you might not have the right context afterall, since to achieve so , I'd have to explain my whole life and toughts .. but well, I guess that's also good for me at some point since I'll have opinions from different points of veiw, Which is good indeed.

Let's skip the presentations and start with the story.

July 20th, 2008.
I was about to head to college, drinking some coffee at some random E-coffee.. Suddenly I got a text message saying "Hi there, how are you" . . . > Unknown number.. Like anyone else, I tought that person got the wrong receiver.. so I replied with "I guess you got the wrong number, I don't have your name in my contact list", After a short while I got another message saying "I don't know really, you're katherine, right?, I'm "xxxx" ". That was pretty weird to me, since It was an unknown number. . . I just replied with "Yes, But still I don't think I might know your name". After some chat, I realised I didn't know the person at all, yet it seems we started a random conversations about ourselves.. Age, likes / dislikes, etc..

August 5th, 2008
We arranged to send us messages again after a while, and we did.
We got to know each other via text msgs, until, we decided to meet each other personally in some random bar.
I went there, and so that person did too [Even tough my friends told me it could be some sort of ugly person or a kidnapper, I decided to go and meet that person and see how things went], She was pretty cute and had an awesome personality, she also liked singing, which is one of my passions apart from others. We met each other pretty well in that place, we went for a walk and I had a really good time at that point.
She invited me to some sort of Exposition her college was making, and I agreed to meet her there.

August 27th, 2008
We met each other at a square near her college, and we went there. My cousin was in the same expo, since both her and that girl went to the same college.
I had a nice time at that expo, we had some funny moments and my cousin was somehow staring at us since she didn't like the idea of me being with her, Don't ask me why.. I might tell that in some other story perhaps.
The exposition ended, and my cousin left with her parents, she said bye to me whereas she didn't to her friend.
Me and her stayed for a while at the square where we met at first, and we talked about a LOT of stuff, and laughed a lot, mostly.
It was late at night, around 1:00 am. And we were sitting on a bench talking and stuff, she asked me if I had a BF, and I told her I didn't like guys, after that sentence, She kissed me instantly.
I felt so special, and happy, since she was the only person that really understood my life and had a similar tought with mine... We stayed in that square for like 5+ hours, and we said goodbye to each other since it was pretty late, and we both had college that day.

December 16th, 2008.
We met once again, we had lunch at some restaurant, we walked a bit, we ended up in my house. That was it.
She left my house at 3pm the next day.


* MY CELL PHONE GOT STOLEN, ALONG WITH MY CONTACT LIST * ffs u.u


September 21st, 2009.
My B-day, She sent me a message saying "Happy Birthday Kath, I still remember you, perhaps you dont "
I kepts talking with her about all that happened the past months, since I couldn't send her a message and I didn't know where she lived u.u, and I didn't want to look like a stalker waiting her outside her college...
We arranged a meeting for the next week, to celebrate my B-day


September 28th, 2009
We met once again, had some drinks, and we went to dance at some nightclub. I loved that moment, it was somehow cute and also loud as hell u.u
This time I spent the night in her house, tho.


November 16th, 2009
I sent her a message since she never sent me one again.
She told me she wanted to see me and stuff, So I went there and we talked about a lot of things.. after a while, I found out she was dating some random guy from her college.. and I almost cry, yet I acted cold and said "gratz" to her (even tought my soul was dying in that right moment).. I left 20 mins later and spent the whole travel + night mad like hell, Trying to hide my feelings with Wrath and anger, It worked, since my personality was different from now.
I decided not to send her a message to her ever again.


May 27th, 2010
She sends me a message saying "Hi Kath, hru?".. I replied it ( / epic failure )
We arranged another meeting.
She told me she broke with her BF and stuff.. To make the story shorter, we ended up kissing each other at night.. again. We spent all the night out like that..


May 29th, 2010
She sends me some text messages telling she needs me and she wants me to be with her.. Sadly I was at college and busy as hell, I replied to her kindly, yet I couldn't go there..


June 5th, 2010
We met each other and went to my house.
She met my Brother (An all around nice guy, he's always busy with something, tho)
My brother cooked dinner for me and her and we had dinner there.
She spent the night at home, and left on the next day at night.


July 2nd, 2010
I sent her a message.. She never replied.


October 15th, 2010
She sends me a message and several messages during the next months, I never had the change nor wanted to reply to them u.u


July 16th, 2011
I met her once again in the same square where we had our first kiss. We talked for a while.. yet nothing seemed the same, she didn't have the slightest interest for me at all, She didn't act cold at all, yet I could see in her eyes that she didn't want to be there, nothing happened, we just talked about random stuff and she never got to hear my real feelings for her, nor my problems atm.. I didn't bother to tell her them since she didn't seem to care much about it.. Dunno why but I felt like shit when I got home.. I cried a lot and ended up in the worst way possible.
I ended up hurting myself and my Brother took me to the hospital.


Today.
It's been 3 years since I knew that person, I got a new life and a somehow broken relation atm.
Yet she's the only person apart from my actual broken relationship and my mom.. that I ever cared about. Yet that person barely notices me nowadays and acted so weird that day when I needed someone to talk with since my life is ruined still u.u


It's just a story
You can give an advice, Tell me something that might help, or just troll at me and the story..
I just wanted to vent a bit here since it's the only place where I actually can.
Thanks for reading this.

Best regards.
Katherine

 

a lesson learned, there would be instances that you should inform her of yer feelings and somehow prepare and willing to face w/e result would happen. so yeah, next time around, once you get to look and love yer partner, well, take a leap of faith, that's life.

 

you know some girls just like to try guys out, most of them dont think like:
oh he so sexy, im gonna stay with him forever
finding the right one aint easy.. finding the wrong one is

just dont get sad please.. its not your fault that she doesnt care anymore..
see yourself as a plastic bag, be ready to be used and thrown away..

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hmmm i cant quite imagine the situation since ive never been through something even similar to your story (yet, and i hope i never do cause it seems to be quite painful x.x) but i always think that things happen for a reason, and if you feel like you havent found many people you care for, i think its because that person is still out there waiting for you, even though they cant tell they are, neither can you, but im sure things will get better at the right time for you.

 

That's really messed up. I'm sorry you had to go through that. Don't dwell on it though, she obviously missed out. It's her loss you shouldn't beat yourself up over it.

 

Things happen for a reason... You just dont know what will happen tomorrow, keep an eye open and your defenses at mid guard at all times.

 

that's some story... O.O

before, people believed that the sun revolves around the earth and it was different... who knew right?

so yeah, things will change for the better.

 

That is honestly .. an epic story. I dont even know what to say